Changes in My Life

Ang Makulay na Buhay ni Bibay lately is not so well, makulay. My days are spent at home just resting. I may be playing Zeus too on my laptop but that is done while I am propped by many pillows in our bed. So in essence, I am doing zilch, nothing, na-da. This is exactly what I have been afraid of when thoughts of having kids pop in my mind - the change in everything. I have always been an on the go person, always rushing to do stuff and having a lot of things going on for me. And I am afraid that all of these will change when we have kids. Don't get me wrong, I want to have kids but the prospect of it terrifies me and now that we are pregnant I am kinda at a loss. Already so many things are changing: I was not able to go to the Sarah Geronimo concert yesterday to help organize our Agency's event which is also my focalship. I failed to attend our magazine meeting in Makati which also happened yesterday. And I cannot go anywhere! I have to hold the trips to Coco Beach and Boracay (thank gawd the GCs are till next year) and also the other places we planned on going to. My new bikini and sun dress are wasting away in my cabinet and a whole lot of other stuff changing in our lives. I guess I just have to accept things the way they are right now. And I love our baby so I'm sure the sacrifice will be worth it. Now that's me convincing myself. Haha! Don't worry, I'll get this soon enough!